This post is about things on my mind.
And in my heart.
And while it may seem crazy to some to find it hard to be away from home when it is “only a dog” that has undergone surgery, I’m having a very difficult time being away right now.
This little girl has been such a huge part of our family over the past 10 years, I really don’t know what I would do without her.
I think I am feeling a bit out of sorts this morning because of this whole being away thing. This is a LONG trip and there will only be a few days to get ready for another LONG TRIP in between this one and the next one.
Sadie will be fine. The surgery went well, and since she was under anyway, she also got her teeth cleaned and her nails trimmed. All shots are now up to date, which is good because my travel schedule put her a bit behind as it was hard to sync times to get that done.
It was kind of like forgetting that your drivers license had expired.
This was Jeff’s message when he got her home.
This came at 6pm last night, just as I was arriving in Tifton, GA where I am teaching today. I rested a lot easier knowing that she was home and being cared for.
Today she is in the care of The Hubster as sons Jeff and Jason are on their way to Colorado for a music festival. Jeff just landed in Atlanta where he is meeting Jason and they will be on the same flight to Denver together. I love that my boys are close enough that they choose to do things like this together just the two of them.
I love that they are friends as well as brothers. Have an awesome time, boys!! Xoxoxox!
While I try to keep this blog mostly about quilting with some history stuff and travel stuff included, and while I try to make it as upbeat as possible I’m feeling that today I need to open journal just a bit because of where my heart is.
Sometimes when booking your life years in advance, things happen. Remember yesterday’s Quote of the Day?
I am getting WAY too many people’s opinions coming my way!
I have to live my life the way it works for me. And this means, that unfortunately I have had to let a couple of guild visits go. Some I was able to reschedule to make the time flow better for me, some I wasn’t able to reschedule because there was no where to put them until the calendar clears out a bit. I am not opening 2019 to guild contracts yet because I want to work smarter not harder.
I received an email from someone who was so upset that I had to cancel their venue a year in advance. The line that floored me went like this
“While everyone can understand a need or a desire to change a schedule under some circumstances, one would then logically expect a huge effort on your part to reschedule promptly, rather than expecting the Guild to wait another two years or longer for your appearance. “
Who says there was NOT a huge effort made to make things work?
There was NOWHERE on my calendar that I could put this one guild without it creating a hardship within my personal life. This email made me feel like I was shirking my duties. Yet the terms of my contract state that either party may cancel the contract within 6 months of the date of appearance because LIFE HAPPENS.
And then I sat there in my car with tears streaming down my face wondering why I have handed over the keys to my life and my future..more than a year in advance to people who don’t have to live my life.
I am ALMOST at the point of saying “I don’t want to do this anymore. I want to be home. I don't want to be in the public anymore.”
This morning I was faced with yet another complaint, this time on an email list I run about the ads on this blog. And I once again have people telling me what I should or shouldn’t do with my life.
I wrote the following reply:
There is something I wish you to consider.
The ads on my blog pay for all of the free content you receive without having to pay for it yourself.
I spend HOURS a day writing and editing photos and always trying to come up with something interesting to post for you.
If I remove the ads I am forced to charge you for each and every pattern and mystery you once received for free.
I treat the ads like "bop a mole". Every one that you close by clicking the X keeps me writing.
Without the revenue from the ads, I would not be blogging or giving away free patterns at all.
It's funny how everyone wants everything for FREE....but they complain about the things that make FREE possible.When on travel trips like this I am up at 6am editing all of the photos from the workshop held the day before. I spend at least 2 hours preparing a blog post before I go out and start my work day.
Oh, if I could only have those 2 hours back that I spend….how much quilting could I get done if I just kept that time for myself.
I don’t have to do a free mystery, I could charge for each and every clue like a block of the month program.
I don’t have to give up my free evening time to bring you into my studio for quilt-cam.
And please don’t mention AD-BLOCKER. If you use ad-blocker, you are not helping me to continue writing this blog that you read for free that supplies all that it does for you.
j have spent more than 11 years of my life ELEVEN YEARS OF MY LIFE writing here. For what?
Can you imagine? Have you considered what really goes on behind the scenes keeping this all going on a daily basis?
My fear – my BIGGEST fear…is that if I stop writing, I’ll never be able to get back started.
Quiltville Quote of the Day!
Vintage drunkard's path variation found yesterday in Georgia!
I took over 60 photos of vintage quilts yesterday. This morning I couldn’t make myself edit them or take the time it takes to turn them into a beautiful slide show.
I believe in right turns, left turns, and u-turns! If you don't like where your road is heading, change direction or build a new road!
Right now I feel I’m at a crossroads and not sure which way to go. Or maybe I need a whole new road all together because I feel like I am completely losing myself to other people’s demands and expectations.
Please don't judge someone else's road or tell them how they should be walking it, or what would make THEIR road better for YOU.
Just some random REAL thoughts on a sunny Wednesday morning in Tifton, Georgia
Off to teach Smith Mountain Morning to the Wiregrass Quilters.