I found myself this way when I lost my friend to breast cancer in december. In fact, I learned a valuable lesson...never machine quilt a customer's quilt when you are grieving! I am in the process of picking out stitching that I didn't see through my tears that the bobbin tension was way off..whhha....and doesn't it sound so "trite" to try to explain to an unhappy customer that "the week I quilted your quilt I was sitting at my friend's bedside while home hospice came in and out....and I watched her slowly slip away"....I should have waited to quilt that quilt. But I digress...
I have a massage client who has become a good friend who is now in the same process of dying from pancreatic cancer. Hospice started the past couple of weeks. I went to see her a couple days ago. She is in good spirts, is still walking around, but she tires so easily. I talked to her daughter, and she said hospice has confirmed that Marie is not long for this world. She is not in pain, meds are taking care of that, but it is going fast.
I want to make her a quilt...I've been pulling out parts of stuff all morning trying to figure out what I can put together for her. Or do I need to worry about it? I feel like I should have given her a quilt MONTHS ago.....I really think it will be her hubby who will need the quilt after Marie is gone, but.....
I don't have any quilts far enough along to just "piece more blocks and get it done" I've got a dozen of this variety, a dozen of that....I was just playing and I kept getting pulled away by work and family, now I need a quilt and some serious time to put it together.
And here this week I was piecing on a quilt for my sister's baby-to-come....and I should have been working on a quilt for Marie. AUUGH!
Does anyone feel overwhelmed about who needs a quilt and how to get it to all fit together around the rest of life that needs to be done too? I've got my little log cabin quilt in the machine, and I can't quilt a gift-quilt until I spend several more hours finishing this one before I can even load anything else in the machine...so what to do first? finish the logs and then piece a quilt for Marie? Do I have time? I seem to get paralyzed when life gets this way.